I want to be LOST

I want to be lost today. Lost somewhere in far, deep and dense where nobody can find me and then only a new ray of light will bring me a life where everything will be new.

There is so much of pain around, actually there had been so much of pain around since long long time. Why is that I am so oblivious of all of it. Is it only me or all of us? Despite of knowing that there are many other people who are deprived of even the basic needs of life and still don't complain, I complain about almost the most trivial things as compared to those pains.

I have a family, a career, good education, still I am so restless, totally clueless of what I am looking for, but I want something more. But what about those people who don't even have a family, who live every single day under the threat of death or who sleep almost every night with a glass of water as their dinner, are they also so restless as I am? Even if they are it is logical but then when I understand all this then why can't I be happy with what all I have? Am I being selfish? Sorry i can't think of any other word for myself.

Every time when I hear of miseries of those war victims, nazi victims and similar I realize that I am so privileged but then the moment I face a problem, I forget it and think of my petty issues as major.

Isn't it that it happens with all of us and we do reflect on it but no actions after that...

The other day there was a lecture on luxury branding which talked about selling of exotic products with sky rocketing prices for the elites and the next session was of Mathew's which talked about the pains, hungers and miseries around the world which made me realize that how futile it is to talk about luxury brands and its business when millions of people lack two times a day meal. This makes me afraid that I am not the only one who has this indifferent attitude but there are many more.